2004-11-11

A friend of mine hanged himself last night. I wonder if there was something I could have done or said to make him think that everything would possibly be ok instead of seeing nothing but blackness ahead? I didn't even see the signs of his depression. I feel guilty for being self-absorbed. Goodbye Mikko - we did love you, we did care. I'm sorry it wasn't enough to make you stay.
We don't know what's ahead. Suicide is making a decision to see nothing but bad times. I plan on making sure of some good times, for myself and for my friends and family. There is something in this life for us all, its there and its real. Abre los ojos, my friends, open your eyes.

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