2005-07-12

Going back to school and class is a real trip and it means bringing out all of those social skills I thought I'd left behind with my bachelor degree.

I was certainly the boring mature age student in English class today - bloody know-it-all, I was hating myself by the end of it. I had to bite my tongue a dozen times and still I was way too blabbery for the situation. I have to get some invisible i-pod earphones so that I can sit through the class and take no notice and not come out with ALL THAT CRAP

But I won't launch a personal attack on myself for one day of social ineptitutde and just accept that stupid people get short shrift from me and that I dislike opinions that masquerade as 'facts', and that I will not wear a skirt over jeans with a singlet top and a ratty peruvian cardigan as a fashion statement. Phew! Talk about grumpy and bitter. Why are all these judgements coming up?

Will have to have a stern talking to self to get back on track and back in love with the world.

Am feeling unloved because work are not moving heaven and earth to keep me even though I know they know I do great work. Why kid myself that anyone cares about me as much as I do? I have to move past it and just go find myself another bloody job.

Discombobulated by all these pseudo-depressive thoughts and a misshaoen attitude. Correctional attention is required I believe.

Can't wait for LBB's next visit in August - finally, something to talk about other than my own silly life! yay

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